25 Days of Christmas (Day 15)

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(Day 15) Luisa Vergara

“My favorite Christmas memory was when I was five or six and me and my brother up after 12am and we immediately went for presents.  We didn’t even wake up our parents.”

No one is actually normal.

A sudden case of insomnia has inspired me to blog!  So let’s get the ball rolling, the post up… it’s late.  Let me start writing.  

Growing up in a Malayalee Penetecostal home I grew up with the distinct feeling that I was not normal at all.  Malayalee is a type of people group from the state of Kerala in South India.  Malayalee Pentecostals are people from this geographic region who practice Christianity- specifically Pentecostalism.  

From what I heard, we would differentiate ourselves in India by what we wouldn’t do.  Most of us are not supposed to wear jewelry, some even go as far as to not wear makeup or nail polish.  We’re advised to dress somewhat modestly and a lot of malayalee pentecostal children live under very strict rules and regulations.  

I grew up frustrated by it all because the idea of “hanging out” with friends bewildered my parents.  It was until college that I was allowed to “hang out” with people who didn’t go to my church.  Very rarely I would go out for snippets of times on special occasions.  Most of the time I was too lazy to fight for more freedom as well.  

In church we didn’t operate the way every other people group seemed to operate.  Stupid things seemed to always get in the way and someone was always dissatisfied with something or another.  

It was so frustrating and for a long time I looked back on my childhood jealous of the “normal” kids.  The kids who had curfews!  Curfews meaning they were allowed outside of their home!!  Children who were encouraged to start dating at the ripe age of 16, not cut off all interactions with guys and suddenly get married at 23!  

Honestly, it just felt unfair.  But as I thought about this more and more I came to a realization: no one is actually normal.  Sure I know some kids who “seem” normal, but everyone has a story!  Everyone has something that surely makes them feel completely different from everyone else around them.  

For us Malayalee Pentecostals it may be a little bit more obvious, but for others it is still there.  Regardless, we are all bound to together by this very fact.  Which is: No one is actually normal.  

Sweet dreams! 

Obedience 38/365

OKAY so I lied to some of my Facebookers, I told you my big news was my blog but it wasn’t that!  I’m SORRY but I was trying to keep something quiet and unless I pretended it was something else I was pretty sure  everyone would see right through me!  >.<

It was a YOUTUBE ACCOUNT!  But my mom felt uneasy about my posting videos so I deleted it.  I have to be honest though, I didn’t want to at first and was very set against it.

I made an account for inner beauty and my mom was all for it until I got around 700 views in one day for a video ,I actually made a blog post about originally.  She felt as though the environment was not safe and that I should wait until I am settled more in life and then I can make an account.

I’ll be honest though, I didn’t listen to her at first >.<  I KNOW I KNOW.  BAD Nina.  I really liked Youtube and was getting a lot more views than from wordpress, as of today I had around 3,000 views from my most popular video.  But a part of me just felt SO guilty for disobeying and I had to delete it.  I do plan on making an account again one day, but as my mother said, when I am older.  And when that happens, I’ll let you all know from the minute I start.

My post topic for today is that of obedience.  I know my introduction was a weird leeway but it is definitely relevant.  I REALLY really didn’t want to obey my mother, and why?  Because I didn’t feel like it.

The thing about obedience is that sometimes its hard and sometimes we just don’t want to do it.  Ephesians 6:1 reads “Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right” THAT is so much easier said than done.

I know that I really didn’t want to obey my mom at first but now I’m glad I did.  I think that once I feel ready I may restart my account and maybe even use it for evangelical purposes.  If I was able to reach 3,000 people through ONE video, think of what I could do if I truly devoted my time.

This is going to be a some what small post but I hope the message rings through for someone out there.  Sometimes obeying God feel inconvenient.  Sometimes we just feel like NOT doing it, but we must understand that he has our very best interests at heart and KNOWS what we need and do not need in our lives.

John 14:23-24

Jesus answered and said to him, “If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him, and make Our abode with him. “He who does not love Me does not keep My words; and the word which you hear is not Mine, but the Father’s who sent Me.

See you tomorrow,

Nina