Practicing what you preach

I’m a prayer group leader at my InterVarsity chapter and just now I have been handed a figurative smack in the face.  I had a really dull moment and realized that I wasn’t practicing what I was preaching.  Not just that, I wasn’t even close to where I was saying others should be in their walks with christ.  And I felt like such a hypocrite.  I think that when I took up this position I imagined I would have to be perfect, infallible, and be at this peak with my walk with God.  But I started writing this post right before my prayer group this past thursday.  I ended up sharing how I was feeling and realized I didn’t have to be perfect.  I was met by so much support from people who said they have all been where I felt like I was at the moment.

Earlier this week as a team (small group team) we looked at the passage in which Jesus calms the storm.  What I found so ironic was the fact that here I was stressing and worrying about my own problems and forgetting what I had just learned.  One of my team members pointed it out to another member but someone it just hit me so hard.  How could I miss out on such an amazing message?

In this passage the disciples almost accuse Jesus crying out “Teacher don’t you care if we drown” when they are met by this massive storm that almost overfills the boat.  The funny thing is Jesus was sleeping on a CUSHION right before.  And before they could say anything else Jesus pulls a Chuck Norris move and calms the sea just by speaking.

How many times have we felt like that before in our life?  Like the waters are overwhelming and we can’t stay afloat any longer?  But the thing is God was always in control from the start.  He has always been in control, will be in control and is in control right now.  We never have to worry.  For the opposite of love is not hate but fear because perfect love casts out al fear.  We create this divide between us and God when we allow ourselves to be afraid like this.  We are created to do so much more and be so much more in our lives.

I wrote this post feeling like a hypocrite but I realize now that I am just growing.  I am not at a “peak” with my relationship with God, you cannot reach a peak and you can always know more and grow closer.  I want to draw closer now and remember everything I learn.  Because Jesus calms the storm and he can calm your storm too.  Just give him full control.

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A post I made about my internship.

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Please allow me to introduce myself, my name is Nina.  I am a blogger, a student and a marketing intern for “The Ticket’, the page you are reading right now is all about is.  In our earlier post you can learn more information about who exactly we are.  And in addition to this I am currently eighteen years old, and on the verge of being nineteen in a little less than two hours.

Although this may an odd thought to think my ride home from summer classes, I couldn’t help thinking, “What if I died right now.”  There’s something beautiful about it, just a day shy of nineteen.  But more than that I thought, “What am I doing of worth in my life?”  This was something we had spoken in detail about during our production meeting this past Tuesday, but it kept bothering.

Lately I have been feeling overwhelmed…

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Day 9: A favorite picture of your best friend

I feel a little bit guilty writing right now.  For one I have a bunch of Calculus that is waiting to get done, and two, its technically not day 9 for 1 hour and 8 minutes.  But I’ve been literally itching to write this post for a long time and I want to give it the tender love and attention it deserves.  So I’m taking a study break, or procrastinating.  But it’s for a good cause.

My love language is quality time, and those closest to me have always been willing to give me the one thing that matters most to me in the entire world.  Their time.  Think about it, what can really matter more?  Time is the one thing you can never get more of, so if someone is willing to give me their time?  Well I don’t intend on wasting there’s.  On the other hand, I almost always cannot stand people who bail on me.  I actually count strikes if you cancel within the hour, its so bad.  I understand if you give me 24 hours…and if you happen to be lazy, but within the hour?  Come on now.

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You’re about to meet some of my best friends in the order of when I met them in my life.  I know you’re only supposed to have one best friend, but I don’t really care.  There are too many people to love in the world to put a limit on who I like.  And who really made that rule anyway?

1.  Sherin

I can’t think of a time in my life where Sherin wasn’t around and I find that really scary because I really can’t imagine my life without her.  She was the first person who slept over my house, and her house was probably where I spent most of my childhood.  My brother and her used to play this insane games where the vacuum cleaner was this evil monster we would have to outrun.  We had the time of our lives.  If you need something done, and done right, you ask Sherin to do it.  You won’t find someone more passionate and driven anywhere else.

2.  Christine

Christine was around since I was almost 4 but we didn’t become friends until we were 12 and best friends until even much longer later.  She’s a treasure.  And I mean this, not a lot of people can see it unless they take the time to know her.  But she’s so incredibly funny and beautiful.  I feel like being around her makes me funnier and makes me a better person.  She is the one person I can count on in any situation, and the one person I know will always be there in my life.  Because you don’t lose friends like this.  We’re opposites, but that’s why we get along so well.  I think she hates this picture, but I don’t know why.  She’s rocking that sari!

3.  Anitha

I choose two pictures because I couldn’t pick.  And also Anitha literally has thousands of pictures of herself, I was not about to narrow it down to just one picture.  Plus the second picture has my love Vinnie, and the first picture has Steena!  (I don’t actually know Steena but I love her because Anitha loves her) We met in college and ever since we’ve been inseparable.  She’s the reason why I love taking pictures even more and she never ceases to make me laugh.    We can’t go too long without seeing each other, that would be crazy.  And Anitha is really one of the most beautiful people I know.  I don’t just mean her outside appearance, anyone can see she’s physically beautiful, but it takes something much more special to be a beautiful person.  And she is just that.  I’m just really blessed to have her in my life.

4. Catherine

If there is one reason why I’m happy that I chose to dorm freshman year of college, it is this girl.  We bonded over this love of Arrested Development and since then we’ve been best friends.  Catherine is the sweetest girl I’ve ever met, and the one person I know not to hold a grudge.  She’s always open to new things and when I need her, she’s always there for me.  I can’t thank her enough for that.  Even when I don’t deserve it, she’s there for me.  One thing I’ve always loved about her is the fact that she’s always open to new experiences and new things.  Plus she’s pretty amazing at karaoke and jam sessions aren’t the same without her playing the guitar that I never use.  She accepts me as I am, and I love her for that.

So those are some of the most important people to me in my life.  I hope you can see why i love them so much.  🙂

Day 4: Your parents

(Photo credits: Manmadham Kesavan)

See those lovely faces up there?  Well those are my parents.  And today I will be telling all of you about the two most important people in my life.  I’m so tempted to also include my brother because I feel like he deserves a post, but unfortunately he’s my brother so I will not talk about him, at least for today.

Lets start off with my dad.  I’m a little upset that no one thinks I look like him, except for my nose.  I’ve always felt like my parents are very good looking people!  My dad is the lenient one, it’s almost as if my mom is the ying and my dad is the yang.  I’ve always been envious of the fact that my dad seems to be the one person I know who doesn’t care about what other people think about him.  He really doesn’t.  And I’ve always cared so much that it’s always bewildered me.  My dad is an engineer and I’ve always loved the fact that he’s not the type to brag.  I remember finding out he had an incredible memory and being really surprised.  And when I tried asking him about it, he denied it.  When I was younger I thought my dad was superman and that no problem was too big to solve.  If there’s one thing I know for sure about my dad is that I am one of the people he loves most in the entire world.  I am certain of it.  I love the fact that he can be silly but he can also be serious.

Now unto my mom.  My mom is a phenomenal human being and I mean this with the utmost sincerity.  She’s the type of person who if she only had a piece of bread to live on, she would give that piece to the person next to her.  My mom is my best friend and in many ways she’s a role model to me.  I aspire to one day do the things my mother was able to do and with just as much poise and charisma.  She encourages me to be more and want more every day of my life.  And showed me that I am far more capable than the limitations I put upon myself.  My mother is a nurse manager and the only person I know who can gracefully function on 3 hours of sleep.  She loves to garden, even if she’s not that great at it, and have a spectacular niche with making food.   My dad is lenient, but my mother is strict.  I remember forgetting to call her one day when I was at my dorm only to find 10 missed calls, voicemails and then texts from my brother.  Over the course of 24 hours, she thought I died.   Needless that was the last time I forgot to call my mom.

I love my parents for so many reasons and I find myself so grateful for having them in my life.  Whenever I really needed something, they have always been able to provide for me and more.  They graced me with amazing genes too!  (I’m just joking…or am I?)

Keep on waiting 41/365

Ouch.  Apparently my blogger views have FELL dramatically!  The internet REALLY does not wait for a blogger who chooses to be lazy.  I was checking my stats and I think I got 1 view today and around a month ago I was averaging around 70 views per day.  The deactivation of my Facebook will also take away a chance for me to market so I guess I need better tags!

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I kind of wanted to keep my age a secret to the whole internet world, FOR my safety of course.  But honestly I don’t think I can make my point without naming my age and you can pretty much guess how old I am from my posts.  PLUS the majority of my posts are viewed by people I know any who.

I just entered my S E N I O R   Y E A R of highschool!  I was pretty excited to enter a new chapter in my life but as soon as my day ended I saw something pretty disturbing written on pretty much EVERY status I saw.  Day 1 down __ days left, blehh first day only __ more, and on and on.

I remember waiting to enter 2nd grade and then 3rd and then 4th and then 5th and then 6th and then suddenly being in middle school and then suddenly being in HIGHSCHOOL and then I remember counting down the days until summer.  Wondering how long it would take me to reach the “fun part”, waiting for APS and SATS and every other thing to end.

I then realized that while I was waiting for all of these things to end I had missed out on truly enjoying the good things.  I thought about how during APs I had actually blogged the most with my friend and how during finals I would really confide in friends and laugh about how dumb finals were.

Point blank, if you rush through the bad things, you miss the good things.  This wasn’t a religious post but today, take it slow, think about everything you do and  ENJOY the small things.  I know I will.

This is ninarachel621 and maybe I’ll enjoy the countdown to 365 full posts a little bit more.