I’m a prayer group leader at my InterVarsity chapter and just now I have been handed a figurative smack in the face. I had a really dull moment and realized that I wasn’t practicing what I was preaching. Not just that, I wasn’t even close to where I was saying others should be in their walks with christ. And I felt like such a hypocrite. I think that when I took up this position I imagined I would have to be perfect, infallible, and be at this peak with my walk with God. But I started writing this post right before my prayer group this past thursday. I ended up sharing how I was feeling and realized I didn’t have to be perfect. I was met by so much support from people who said they have all been where I felt like I was at the moment.
Earlier this week as a team (small group team) we looked at the passage in which Jesus calms the storm. What I found so ironic was the fact that here I was stressing and worrying about my own problems and forgetting what I had just learned. One of my team members pointed it out to another member but someone it just hit me so hard. How could I miss out on such an amazing message?
In this passage the disciples almost accuse Jesus crying out “Teacher don’t you care if we drown” when they are met by this massive storm that almost overfills the boat. The funny thing is Jesus was sleeping on a CUSHION right before. And before they could say anything else Jesus pulls a Chuck Norris move and calms the sea just by speaking.
How many times have we felt like that before in our life? Like the waters are overwhelming and we can’t stay afloat any longer? But the thing is God was always in control from the start. He has always been in control, will be in control and is in control right now. We never have to worry. For the opposite of love is not hate but fear because perfect love casts out al fear. We create this divide between us and God when we allow ourselves to be afraid like this. We are created to do so much more and be so much more in our lives.
I wrote this post feeling like a hypocrite but I realize now that I am just growing. I am not at a “peak” with my relationship with God, you cannot reach a peak and you can always know more and grow closer. I want to draw closer now and remember everything I learn. Because Jesus calms the storm and he can calm your storm too. Just give him full control.