I find the timing of this post really funny, I have just a week before my math final and it is STRESSING ME OUT! I think that all finals in general stress me out, but more so its the anticipation and fear. Really that’s what anything in life really comes down to, fear.
I’m afraid of going for my final and realizing I know nothing. I’m afraid of finding out whether or not I failed. And waiting on these things turns me green with anticipation and STRESS! Oh the stress.
The thing is, fear is crippling. Fear can hold us back in so many different ways. When I think back on this week, I’ve turned down at least 4 people I really wanted to spend time with because even if I procrastinate, I feel guilty having fun the week before my final.
It’s really stupid because I end up doing nothing all day anyway. I just don’t want to allow myself the enjoyment of the company of my friends.
I remember going for my last math final and being so stressed out right before. The final ended up being CRAZY easy and I passed with flying colors. But right before I felt like I was going to puke. All this anticipation was leading up to this one moment and when this moment came I didn’t really know what to do.
Because getting my final wasn’t really an awe inspiring moment. I got my test, started and finished it like I would any other test. Only difference was I actually really knew my stuff this time around.
It stresses me out that blackboard isn’t showing my final exam prep videos and that less and less time is there for me to study. But it’s not until this stress really motivates me that I actually stop messing around and focus. So I guess in many ways stress can be a really great thing. It’s an amazing motivator for so many different reasons.