I was debating whether or not I should post about this, you see, I have no problem writing about anything. The ONLY thing is the fact that some of my readers are people that I know and although we’d like to say that we don’t judge people based on their past actions, that we move on, that’s not always the case. But I felt so strongly that although this is something that is a bit more personal for me to write [I feel odd putting myself out there] if someone is helped from me sharing an experience, then why not..?
For a long time I wasn’t happy with the person that I was, and that’s a very scary thing to put out there. [I slowly beginning to regret… :/] How many people can say that when they truly evaluate their actions, that they can say they like the person they are?
I’m not a mean person, not intentionally anyway, but I’ve always been a very honest person. I tell you how I feel straight up and I’m not one to bottle up my feelings. On a side note, bottling up your feelings is NEVER good! I used to think it was better to let anger fester inside of me and then have a HUGE confrontation. NO! Its better to reconcile, and as lame as it sounds, writing out my feelings ALWAYS makes me feel better.
Now back on topic, I had a friend who suggested that I act like another friend. She didn’t mean it in a “I hate your personality and I want you to be someone else..” kinda way,but in a “You should try to emulate their good characteristic because people like so and so SO very much”.
I actually sat on my bed and though– “Well how can I be like so and so..?” THANK GOD I stopped myself. I slowly came to reason with the fact that I was actually trying to change the person that I WAS to please someone else.
I’m all for self improvment, to be a better version of WHO YOU ARE. Kind of like when they took the cocaine out of Coca Cola [is that right..?], not when fox suddenly became abc family [do you know what I am talking about, or do I make no sense?]
This post is for anyone who ever felt insecure, like me… you don’t need to be anyone other than yourself. I’d rather be hated for who I am, then loved for who I am not.
See you tomorrow,
But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.
You are who you are for a reason